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it's been over a year since i've written anything here. looking back on all these old pictures, it makes me sad and sort of wistful that whatever i felt, good or bad, at the time felt like the beginning and the end of the world. i threw everything i had, in art and love and friends, blindly, because i believed. i was selfish, still am. i don't know where to put all this want and need and that's why it's all or nothing with everything for me because i'm scared. i will always be a friend, but i need some time to lick my wounds.

all my life i've given everything i have, i tear myself apart because maybe if i show all that i have, it might be enough to make them stay. but it's funny how things don't work out no matter how hard you try. of course it hurts, of course it feels shit when all your cards are thrown back into your face...i'm learning the hard truth that sometimes, people just don't want it in the first place even if it's everything you got. i'm a future-seeker, i see all the possibilities and it just kills me inside when the chance isn't taken, when my open palm is left empty, when i'm right there but end up still standing alone at the threshold.

everyone's afraid of something and just waiting for the right moment, but there IS no right moment, all moments are the same and it's up to you to make it the right moment. so i guess this is a sign to you, whoever is reading this. don't ignore that phone call. say something first. end it or start it, for good. let people know you're okay, let them know you're hurting...let yourself be helped. trust your instincts, believe in actions. make it happen and accept the result with grace. forgive, don't forget but don't doubt the good. if it hurts, let it go. give it all you've got, whatever you have, and you'll be okay.

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FrankT Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday Christina - hope you had a great day :)
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Saihai Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Hey Christina, happy birthday. I hope your life is good and enjoyable, and you find out what you want to do with it. 
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Pymsie Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014
Hey, I noticed that you took your blog down. It was probably for personal reasons, and I respect that, but I'm not going to lie, I'm sad to see it go. Just wanted you to know that your blog had comforted me through some of my darkest days, and your words will continue to resound in my heart long after I have forgotten them.
Thank you for putting yourself out there and sharing your heart with us. You are an amazing and truly gifted writer!
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C4M30 Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2014   Photographer
Hi Pymsie--

Yes, I took my blog down, partially in want of cleaning up the clutter of my writing (there are more than a few posts I'd like to delete from the universe entirely), and partially because of my decision to someday, hopefully, write a novel. I'm sorry for such a late reply, coming back to deviantart brings mixed feelings. But if you'd like, I could send you the link to my new blog. It is less poetic vomit and more narrative writing, now.

As an artist who writes (or a writer who arts), I aspire to inspire. So thank /you/.
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Pymsie Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2014
Wow, thank you for replying to me!
I feel fairly star struck, talking with the girl who has saved me on multiple times with her so called poetic vomit, haha.
Although I will still be sad, the fact that you are thinking of writing a novel is absolutely incredible and I would hands down buy it if you did!! (I'm not going to lie, I am so excited by the notion that you may write a novel. Like really, I am super giddy about it right now) That is an amazing dream and I hope you do continue on with the writing you think you might do!
And well, better late than never, right? I would absolutely love to continue following your writing, no matter what style if you are alright with that.
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C4M30 Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2014   Photographer
You're too sweet! I'm sorry for another late reply, but if you'd still like to read my writings, you can send me a Note with your email so I can add it to my readers list :heart:
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ana182 Featured By Owner May 26, 2014  Professional Photographer
sorry it's a few years late but thanks for the fave :) just starting to figure out how deviantart works
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C4M30 Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2014   Photographer
No problem!
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BlondeLittleVampire Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Happy Birthday :)
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C4M30 Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2014   Photographer
Thank you!
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