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‘That what I want, basically, what I really want, is what you want.
And I don’t know what you want. Surprise me’.

But that’s the kinship between “I” and “thou”. So when I ask, I go right down to the question, which we started with: “What do I want?”

The answer is “I don’t know”.

When Bodhidharma was asked, “Who are you?” which is another form of the same question, he said "I don’t know."
Planting flowers to which the butterflies come, Bodhidharma says "I know not."

I don’t know what I want.

And when you don’t know what you want, you reach the state of desirelessness. When you *really* don’t know…you see, there’s a beginning stage of not knowing, and there’s an ending stage of not knowing.

In the beginning stage, you don’t know what you want because you haven’t thought about it, or you’ve only thought superficially. Then when somebody forces you to think about it and go through it, you say, “Yeah, I think I’d like this, I think I’d like that, I think I’d like the other" ... That’s the middle stage.

Then you get beyond that, and say “Is that what I really want?” In the end you say, “No, I don’t think that’s it…I might be satisfied with it for a while, and I wouldn’t turn my nose up at it, but it’s not really what I want.”

Why don’t you really know what you want?

Two reasons, that you don’t really know what you want:

Number one: You have it.

Number two: You don’t know yourself. Because you never can.

The godhead is never the object of its own knowledge, just as a knife doesn’t cut itself, fire doesn’t burn itself, light doesn’t illumine itself. It’s always an endless mystery to itself. “I don’t know.”

And this “I don’t know,” uttered in the infinite interior of the spirit, this “I don’t know,” is the same thing as “I love,” “I let go,” “I don’t try to force or control.” It’s the same thing as humility.

And so the Upanishads say, “If you think that you understand Brahman, you do not understand. You have yet to be instructed further. If you know that you do not understand, then you truly understand, for the Brahman is unknown to those who know it, and known to those who know it not’.

And the principle is that anytime you, as it were, voluntarily let up control, and in other words, cease to cling to yourself, you have an access of power. Because you're wasting energy all the time in self defense, trying to manage things, trying to force things to conform to your will... The moment you stop doing that, that wasted energy is available. And therefore, in that sense, with having that wasted energy available, you are one with the divine principle. You have the energy.

When you are trying, however, to act as if you are God...that is to say you don't trust anybody and you are the dictator and you have to keep everybody in line, you lose the divine energy. Because what you are doing is simply defending yourself.

So then...the principle is that the more you give it away, the more it comes back.

Now you see, I don't have the courage to give it away; I'm afraid. And you can only overcome that by realizing that you better give it away, because there's no way of holding on to it.

The meaning of the fact that everything is dissolving constantly, that we're all falling apart, that we're all in the process of constant death...that's of greatest assistance to you. The fact that everything is in decay is your helper. That is allowing you so that you don't have to let go, because there's nothing to hold on to. It's achieved for you by the process of nature.

So once you see that you don't have a prayer, that it's all washed up, and that you will banish and 'leave not a wreck behind'...and you *really* get with that, suddenly you find you have the power, this enormous access of energy.

But it's not a power that came to you because you grabbed it, it came in entirely the opposite way.

The power that comes to you in that opposite way, is power with which you can be trusted.



--Alan Watts
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FrankT Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday Christina - hope you had a great day :)
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Saihai Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Hey Christina, happy birthday. I hope your life is good and enjoyable, and you find out what you want to do with it. 
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Pymsie Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014
Hey, I noticed that you took your blog down. It was probably for personal reasons, and I respect that, but I'm not going to lie, I'm sad to see it go. Just wanted you to know that your blog had comforted me through some of my darkest days, and your words will continue to resound in my heart long after I have forgotten them.
Thank you for putting yourself out there and sharing your heart with us. You are an amazing and truly gifted writer!
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C4M30 Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2014   Photographer
Hi Pymsie--

Yes, I took my blog down, partially in want of cleaning up the clutter of my writing (there are more than a few posts I'd like to delete from the universe entirely), and partially because of my decision to someday, hopefully, write a novel. I'm sorry for such a late reply, coming back to deviantart brings mixed feelings. But if you'd like, I could send you the link to my new blog. It is less poetic vomit and more narrative writing, now.

As an artist who writes (or a writer who arts), I aspire to inspire. So thank /you/.
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Pymsie Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2014
Wow, thank you for replying to me!
I feel fairly star struck, talking with the girl who has saved me on multiple times with her so called poetic vomit, haha.
Although I will still be sad, the fact that you are thinking of writing a novel is absolutely incredible and I would hands down buy it if you did!! (I'm not going to lie, I am so excited by the notion that you may write a novel. Like really, I am super giddy about it right now) That is an amazing dream and I hope you do continue on with the writing you think you might do!
And well, better late than never, right? I would absolutely love to continue following your writing, no matter what style if you are alright with that.
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C4M30 Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2014   Photographer
You're too sweet! I'm sorry for another late reply, but if you'd still like to read my writings, you can send me a Note with your email so I can add it to my readers list :heart:
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ana182 Featured By Owner May 26, 2014  Professional Photographer
sorry it's a few years late but thanks for the fave :) just starting to figure out how deviantart works
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C4M30 Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2014   Photographer
No problem!
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BlondeLittleVampire Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Happy Birthday :)
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C4M30 Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2014   Photographer
Thank you!
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